Unexpected

a heart will throb

at its most unexpeCted

and last nIght

iT dId

all becausE of you.

my thoughtS flew

to wherever you Are

wherever you may be.

and i know

it is quite imPossible

for now

for me to put my Arms around you

but i know

ill bReak the seas

and ill cross the boundaries

and defy every daTeline

just to see those eyes.

I Don't Wanna Fall For You

You're a far-fetched dream

among the mOvie stars i see in the tv screen

Untouchable, unReachable

and love is like the wind

it calms, it soothes

but it bRing storms

and you know it spElls destruction

so i don't wanna fall for you

not now, not tomorrow

coz you are made for the silver screen

and i was for the movie tickets

you try to go down

from your not-so lofty PedestaL

but It doesn't change thE factS

you're up there

i'll perpetually be here

And love comes like a thief

it doesn't knock, it just comes

and i am not suRe if this rEally is one

but i don'T want to wiggle to deatH

so i don't wanna fall for you

not now, not tomorrow

coz i was only madE to take a glimpse

and was not meant to steal a kiss

you're not yet far from me

But thEn the diStance is a mile i won'T dare race

you're reachable, vIrtually

you're toucHable...make believe

so i don't want to fAll for you

not tomorrow, not today

i promise ill neVer fall for you

coz you are not for mE

I Wrote A Thousand Words, But This Will Be The Last One For You

i wrote a thousand poems for You
expressing all my lOve and hate for yoU
and sometimes, i do remembeR
all those happy times we shared together

i wrote countless words for you
i pinned a million songs about the feelings that i had for you
But this poem, I sweaR, will be the last
because i'm over with The past

were not samson and delilaH
but our story started wIth a bible
and no, i dont mean the book
what i mean waS looking for the books

we used to be so tight
sittiNg together, side by side
we usEd to be so tight
why did all those tightness die?

we used to wAge on petty fights
nasty aRguments, sleepless nights
At night i confroNt the stars
why Did we end up in here?

graduation passed I didn't say
all the tHings i should have said
like a thousAnd sorries and a goodbye
and good luck hug to your new life

we'Ve moved past from being friends
were now strangErs in a way
you have moved on and so am i
alThough i'm not sure if you really did

i know yOu are happy with your life
i'm very happy with mine too
i Think the sEparation was good
we both ended up so good


i wrote a thousand poems for you
expressing aLL my love and hate for YOU
for The friendship...a friend wHo went away
but thIs will be my laSt poem for you

i'm over it.
you're over it.
they're not yet.
but it's over.

If You Read Between the Lines

I have my heAdphones on
listening to your iMmortal songs
that speaks of life and love.

you first left A letter on the doorstep
to the guy who said that you put
those georgia starS to shame
everytime your blue eyes shine.

then you asked Shakespeare's most famous beau
to take you someWhere
you both could be alone
and be royalties
that is IF he says yes.

you wished you could come back
to that cold monTh
to apologize to the guy
who gave you roses
but let them to wither.

you said you wear sneakers
and couldn't put up a fIght against a cheerleader
but now you celebrate your age
with wearing of high heels.

you writE songs about the boys you've dated
about your own experiences
about your mom and your friend
and i like that.

i have my headphones on
listening to your songs
and this poem
is a statement of how
i adore you.

Debra

Dear Debra,

Don't be insecure. Hahahahaha.  And remember, you are a flower despite being a rockstar. Hahahaha. This one is for you.  You are an amazing friend. ;))

P.S. I know. I know.  She doesn't look like you. :p

Untitled Sketch

An artwork I made minutes ago. This is the first sketch I did after so long that is not fashion-related.  And I know I'm bad with colors.  But on the positive side, this is the best i made so far. ;)  And now, I'm going to do some painting this sembreak. :))

Lunod

Saan nga ba huhugutin

Ang mga salitang dapat sabihin

Kung ang dila'y umuurong

At puso'y tumitirik?

Patuloy na nga lang ba

Akong mangangapa

Habang tinitimbang ko

Ang lakas ng aking damdamin

Sa kawalan ko ng lakas ng loob

Para umamin?

Patuloy na lamang ba akong

Maghihintay

Sa pagkakataon na

Maari namang wala?

Urong-sulong na lamang ba

Ang kaya kong gawin?

Kaya ko bang ipaglaban

Ang aking nararamdaman

Kung hindi mo rin naman alam

At ang puso mo'y

May iba namang laman?

***After a very long time, I'm now able to post again! Ayeeh!***

Alaala Mo...Mula sa Pier 4

Alam mo, nabusog ako nong sinabi kong

Baliw lang naiisip ang mukha ng kanilang gusto

Dahil kinain ko ang ang aking bawat salita.

At alam mo bang para kang turnilyong

Dahang-dahang bumabaon sa puso ko

Habag paikot ka sa aking isip.

At ang kinang nang iyong mata

Ay higit pa sa ningning ng sandaang bituin

At sa bawat mong pagtitig

Ay ako'y unti-unting nalulusaw.

Ngunit anong magagawa ko?

Hindi ko kayang ipagsigawan

Ang aking nararamdaman

Kaya kinukuntento ko ang aking sarili

Sa ating munting kwentuhan,

Minsan-minsang batiin

At marahil, panandaliang pagkakaibigan.

Maalala mo ba ako

Ngayon na tayo'y magkalayo?

Pagkat ako, habang sinusulat ko ang tulang ito

Mukha mo ang nakapinta sa isipan ko.

Isinulat ko ang tulang ito sa waiting area ng Pier 4 ng Cebu Port habang nasa isip ko ang isang taong hinding-hindi ko papangalanan. Shet ka naman oh. Kung kailan dapat maging normal ang buhay ko, saka naman maitatattoo ang mukha mo sa isip ko. Kainis ka!

I Love You

I just dropped by

To say I love you.

But it doesn't mean

I want you

Because today,

it's gonna be goodbye.

I'm sick and tired

Of my heart hurting

And this time,

It's you whom I'll be leaving

'coz I know

it'll never be fine.

Don't dare stop me

Or act like you want me back,

'coz honey, it's not gonna work.

I love you

And it's gonna be hard

but I'm not born a loser

So I love you, goodbye.

Die

Die!
I cry to the world,
"Die!"
I don't need your indolence...
Your stupidity...
Your entire person.
People like you
Don't deserve to live
Nor savor
The comforts of life.
So I scream within my soul
"Die!"
May you run out of blood...
Of oxygen...
Of life.
I'm sick and tired
Of seeing your ugliness
And hearing your stupidity.
You are the greatest burden
And all you deserve
is DIE!
Because the world
Is too small
For the two of us
And since I worked my butt out
Of everything
I deserve these all
And I don't get
Why at times
The world unites with you.
These world is too small
For me
And you
And so die!
I never needed you.

I Kissed Ugliness Goodbye

I kissed ugliness goodbye
since I found out I was gorgeous.
Not necessarily on the outside
'coz I have long accepted
I'll never be drop-dead hot
But I'm beautiful within
And I know people with good eyes
See it radiate inside out.

I kissed stupidity goodbye
since I found out I'm brilliant.
Not necessarily extraordinarily smart
'coz I have long accepted
I'll never excel academically.
But I'm brilliant in some other ways
And I know people who see geniuses
Could see one in me.

I kissed bitterness goodbye
since I found out I could be happy.
Not necessarily living life perfectly
'coz I have long accepted
I'll never have one.
But I'm contented though life is cruel
And I know deep down
I could be happy.

I kissed bullying goodbye
since I found out I'm strong.
Not necessarily I'll never fall
'coz I have long accepted
That I could momentarily be weak.
But I'm a fighter and I'll try not to break
And I know and I'll forever cling to this:
"Bullying is for losers!"

A Sexy Poem

I love him!
I scream I love him.
And he echoes
"I love you back!"
And his lean arms
Envelope my thin frame
And his lips
Touch mine;
His tongue
Invading my mouth.
Deeper
His kiss went
And deeper
We went.
The tunes he utters
And the way
He says my name --- Its sexy.
He came.
I came.
We grasp for air.
We lay side by side.
I say I love you
He whispers,
"I love you back,
Naughty boy!"

Disclaimer: A product of my "wild" imagination. The poem doesn't necessarily reflect the writer or anyone else.

Sixty Minutes

I smell the scent
Of your sexy perfume
From a distance
Inches close
Yet like a mile apart.

And as the teacher says
"Everybody raise for prayer",
My heart pleads
The heavens
That you may notice
These eyes
That silently adore you.

As the teachers begins
Her lesson for the day,
I shot you secret gazes
Memorizing your every detail...
Every strand of your hair.

In sixty minutes
I sit beside you
With my heart
Throbbing
Like a crazy timpani drum
And my stomach
Churning
Because of the butterflies
Fluttering within.

In sixty minutes
I wish
That you may give me
A smile...
A second of attention.

And as the teacher
Ends the class,
The sixty minutes end.
Another teacher enters;
it's another sixty minutes.
The cycle starts again.

Under The Mahogany Tree

***This is the full and uncut version of the story Under The Mahogany Tree which was published in the pages of The WORD, the official student publication of Holy Name University, Tagbilaran City, Bohol.  I got raving responses from the readers about the story and let me have this opportunity of saying my sincerest thank you for loving the story of Jenny. ♥

UTMT is a special piece for me since it became an evident transition for me from being that so-so writer in high school to a better, more mature writer in college.  This is also my longest finished story to date.  Writing the story took me a long time ---five months I think --- but I think the length of the hiatus really gave the story a wonderful take.

So for my dearest readers, here is Under The Mahogany Tree.  Hope you keep on reading my literary pieces here at http://foreverdandreb.blogspot.com/.  Do also drop by to my personal blog http://thoughtsandheartstrings.blogspot.com/.  Thanks much. ♥ ♥ ♥

The sun does not illuminate the field where I stand. The chill of the cold February breeze weakens my every bone. The smell of every blossoming flower is like venom that anesthetized my body. The dark gray sky, the loneliness of the lake...it all adds up to my lament. The feeling of melancholy gradually consumes my totality, especially when I think of the memories I had in this place…on this very spot.

I stand here near a paved area at the foot of the mahogany tree. This tree in the middle of this field of yellow buttercups and asters, after all these years, has been standing strong. How old it is? That I don’t know. I am no scientist to figure it out but one thing is for sure, it is old, very old. This mahogany tree has been here even before I was born. This tree witnessed stories of love, lost, friendship. It has been tested by time yet it remained on its roots, able to give comfort to those who seek it, especially forlorn souls.

Ako isa...

Ako isa ka Bol-anong manunulat
Bininlan sa dakong hagit
Nga buhion ug balik
Ang nilimot nga bahandi nina Kariapa.
Ako isa ka batang manunulat
Tinugyanan sa mga pangandoy
Ug mga paglantaw
Sa mga miaging anak ni Garcia.
Ako isa ka Bisayang manunualt
Na sa isa ka highayon sa iyang kinabuhi,
Nalimot ang katahum sa lingwaheng Bol-anon
Apan akong lahion kining akong naandan
Higugmaon pinulungang Bisaya, akong pagkasugdan.


***Written last Friday. February 24, 2012 during the Poetry Reading Night of the Taboan 2012 Satellite Activity - Central Visayas.

Baby Don't Cry

Baby don't cry
Never shed a tear for life 'coz it had never been fair
Just as you want it to be.
Baby don't cry
Just go on and smile
'coz the world is filled with color
Even when the clouds are gray.

I know
People try to pull you down.
They try to shatter
Your little soul.
But baby don't cry
Because you are
Special
Especially in my eyes.

I know
There are those who mess up
But don't you dare forget
You're a wonderful
Beautiful soul.

Baby don't cry
Never shed a tear
Just fight
'coz you are a warrior
Even though you stumble to the ground.
Baby don't cry
Just continue to shine
'coz you are a star
Though you're not up there
In the sky.

Chocolate Words

Words as sweet as chocolate
They melt in you
They taste so good
You scream for more.
And the liar
Feeds you
With so much more
You'll never have hunger pangs.
But the sweetness
It gave you diabetes
You realized
Chocolates can make you sick
Because you never though
Behind the sweetness
Is fatal sugar content.

Like chocolates
Your words were so addictive
I believe on them all
Not knowing that
Somebody
You'll melt my heart like stones.
Like chocolates
Your words are sumptuous
In every bite
That I ate a whole box
Not thinking that heartaches
May come along
Once the chocolate turns to stone.

And so I abhor
Those chocolate words
From your lips
Coz too much of them
Can make me sick.
It's not insulin
Which brings the cure
But your tongue
Cut, sliced
And melting on
The frying pan.

Jealousy

How could it be?
You are there
With the person
Who held your heart captive
While I am here
Swallowing every bitterness.

How could it be?
You are there
Adoring her gaze
While here I am
Quietly loving those eyes.

Shouldn't it be that
You're here
Wrapped around my arms
While you flash to me
That very smile
I worship in silence?

Shouldn't it be that
You're here
To hold my hand
Whenever I'm frail?

Shouldn't it be that
You're here
To take away my doubts,
Put off my sorrows,
And turn
Night skies into days?

Shouldn't it be that
You're here
To make me feel
That I am perfect
Beyond all my imperfections
And that I need not
Be Insecure
Because in your eyes
I'm the most beautiful?

But how could this be?
You're there
Somewhere so faraway
Your lips touching hers
While I'm here
Chocking
By the grip of jealousy?

Could it ever be
Me and you
Hands intertwined
Under the moonlit sky?